Christian in Disguise....

I was raised in a Christan home by a very faithful devote mother. I went to private Christian school my whole life. I accepted Christ in my heart at the age of 5.  I even went to Biola University and considered studied Christian Education..... So when your friend says she doesn't consider you a spiritual or Christan friend it hurts. Not the words, but the reality. Am I not projecting the christian life style? Am I making Christianity look negative with me claiming to be one? What am I doing to not exemplify a good Christan woman. 


I have always been kind of quiet about my faith cause I wanted people to see Christ through my love and my kindness. I never wanted to be a bible thumper shoving Christianity down peoples throats and telling everyone they are going to hell. (I know that is an extreme opposite and most people aren't like that  :) But I guess showing Gods love and my love for Jesus through actions is not working cause my friends don't even think of me as "Christan"... I hoped that others would look at my life and my open mindedness to love and friendship and ask me what was different or why I was the way I am. That way they ushered in the conversation and I would just be answering there questions with my evangelism. 


NOW the truth. I should be wearing a shirt saying "God Squad"!!!! Not for the reminder to others whom I serve but I need to do it to remind me so I can know that I am ALWAYS an ambassador for Christ. To know that every curse word, every gossip, every road rage comes from me but ultimately exemplifies God in my life. That when I put a drink to my lips or a crude word comes from me it would be more diffucult to deny that what I do is a reflection of God in my life. The actions I do when I think it doesn't matter and to people that I may never see again or even to people I dislike is a missed opportunity for God to use me as a vessel for Him. Every time my friends come to me for advice about anything about a marriage or deployment or parenting I give my advice instead of praying with them and looking to God for counsel and asking Him to speak for me. I need a freaking shirt or tattoo to remind me what I have to offer in life is all given to me by the Grace of God... I should not be quiet I should be proud of the Christian I am and I should be a better one. The second I get comfortable I allow Satan to let me get lazy. I NEED A SHIRT!!!!  It will hold me to a higher authority and accountability that everyone knows who I serve cause it is written on my chest instead of the heart that only God can visualize. I told everyone about my weight loss why haven't I decided to have and accountability partner when it comes to my after life and my heavenly future and my spiritual well being?! I am so ashamed. I need to make a change!


Christian in disguise no more -- I am Stephanie Medina-Perez a proud Christian woman and I need your support to help remind me that everything I do including my actions and my words and EVEN my FaceBook posts are a direct reflection of who is Lord in my life. My life is a story that everyone should be able to read and find Christ in it! I am not done growing Father forgive me for my reluctance to proclaim you in my life to others and forgive me for not serving you in a way you deserve.  My shirt is on Lord Jesus!

My disguise is off.... I hope to show the true Christ who lives in me !!!!